What a difference having a child makes!

It is ten o'clock at night and I'm sitting here wondering if I will make it through the night! We are putting our 9 week old daughter in her crib for the first time. Oh, we have tried in the past, and have never been successful! So, to let my wonderful husband get some much needed sleep, I am going to use the couch tonight. He has to get up to go to work and I am luck enough to stay home with Makenzie. Makenzie is our miracle child...a true blessing from God. We started trying to have children two years ago. I thought we were so lucky to get pregnant only three months after starting this journey. I thought we were so blessed when we saw the beautiful heartbeat of our child at 7 weeks. And, I was devastated when we went at 12 weeks and the heartbeat had stopped. We waited five months before trying for another one and was lucky to get pregnant again so quickly. We were so excited because the doctor thought he saw two sacs...twins!?! We headed to Seattle to catch an Alaskan cruise. It was awesome!! The day we got off the ship, I started losing our second blessing. I was just destroyed....why me...why us...will I ever get to have a child? Then I got pregnant again and my doctor was not taking any chances! I was put on prescription prenatal pills, extra folic acid, and progesterone. As you can see, we were successful and on July 2, 2008, my daughter was born. My husband and I are absolutely thrilled. However, we are also beside ourselves trying to get use to this change!!! We are "older" parents and had been set in our ways! Not any more!!! But, I will tell you one thing...I wouldn't change a thing. I have two angels in heaven waiting for their mommy and daddy and I have an angel here on earth who will be loved by her mommy and daddy. I'll let you know how it goes tonight!